I’ve had days where it was all I could do to get out of bed, years where I sat in the tub every night at 8:45 pm and ran the water to make sure my kids didn’t hear me crying, I mean bawling…
I buried my mom when I was three months pregnant with my first child and then a plane dropped out of the sky and killed four people I called family. I’ve lived through a divorce I never thought would happen and stumbled my way through a financial crisis a loved one invited me to. I’ve closed businesses and watched my own child lose himself to rebellion and substances.
I’ve had hours, days, months and years shrouded in darkness and many days I asked how can I go on, how can I possibly live with all this pain. There were moments I even considered ending it all.
Thankfully I had two little children who I couldn’t bear to abandon. This journey through pain has taught me that sometimes you can’t make pain go away, sometimes the answers don’t come, sometimes there is no quick solution or no solution at all.
Sometimes you just have to play with pain.
Sometimes you just have to play in pain
I”m thankful that in my darkest moments I didn’t end it. That when I was blind to hope and deaf and dumb to God’s grace I didn’t throw the towel in.
You can play in pain. You can push through. I know. Because I have and so too can you.
All Heaven is rooting for you. So don’t give up. Please, don’t give up.
This morning as I watched God do his thing, I was reminded that as darkness becomes light as night is overcome by day so to will our pain be taken away someday.
Maybe you’re wondering how you can live with your pain. Maybe you’re wondering if you can go on.
You can.
Reach out. Get help.
And never forget you and I can play in pain- we can do it. We can.
How Can I Go On With All This Pain? Sunrise Inspiration
All Photo’s By Hope24Seven
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